WHAT HAPPENED???????

This Super nice guy was flirting with me all weekend in person very flirty very fun! He is the best so nice and we have so so so much in common!!! but then last monday he doesnt even know i exist!!!!! i couldnt believe it!! so on tuesday i made some conversation and he totally blew me off!!!!!!! i couldnt believe it!!! i wish he would like me again! i find that i am very intimidating to guys so i think may be he thought i was annoying hime but still!!!! come on! it make me so sad

What do i do when you make me sad?? when you make me cry?? when you make me feel lower then everyone else in the world?? I tell myself that i am too ugly to have these feelings...how does that make you feel?

you just wait my emotions are all bottled up now because of you and you wont like it when it blows up all in your face......what you dont understand is that psycopaths come from bottled up emotion and being alone all of which you give me

me an my sister went to a gymnastics tournatment and she left me so fast and i couldnt stand it i was so sad that i cried my way home....what a loser. SOCOOL and her boyfriend and it is so crazy, we used to make fun of people that would act like that they were immature and crazy, people who would hold hands and run their fingers though their hair and flirt and act stupid to look attractive yeah oh and those people whose boyfriend were protective of them yeah their strange but no not anymore! its cool. ugh and now she is making fun of me and how my children will dress! her boyfriend didnt say anything and i just said my children will dress however they want, i hate that she said that to me! why cant i have a nice boyfriend? i feel so alone!

Had an amazing day of baking with SOCOOL!!!! i am so excited to make my first thanksgiving meal!!!

I have a friend lets say a mutual friend. Lets call her SHORT. Well SHORT is going out with DRAMA (a dramatic guy duh). I guess they were going out until this last week. Then DRAMA walked with me after one of our classes. We have been friends for a long time and i have always helped out with his girl toubles. so as we were walking he asked me if he could have my number i thought that it was to help him out with his girl touble or just to talk about SHORT. Then he asked me to meet him in an area of the school after school and so i did. He handed me a note and asked if he could txt me that night but of course i lost my phone (like always) so i could not txt him or he could txt me. Anyway he handed me a note and then we left. The note said that he had liked me for a long time and that he wanted to become more then friends fast! and soon! it was so strange to me that i told LEST and then ran to tell SOCOOL her boyfriend and BEAR. They were leaving at the time so i screamed SOCOOL as a ran around the people like a cray person!! then i through my stuff on the ground and cried into SOCOOL. Now dont take this so serioully it was funny and i dont want DRAMA to feel bad but i should probably tell SHORT. I sent a letter to DRAMA saying that i was in an off on relashionship with some other guy from a different town and that i didnt want to make things more complicated but i think i did! i have been listtening to LEST's i pod for a while 2 periods during the day and i listen to the same song over and over and over and over agiang! it is you are beautiful but james blunt it is the best of the best of the best!! i love it so much!!!! SOCOOL randomly punched me today and it made me laugh so hard!! it was crazy!!!!!!! ME and SOCOOL went to the last twilight tonight at 5 and it was so good! i had a competion before and this guy was there he is a senior on the football team and ever thing but he was at the competiton and then he was at the movie too weird huh? lol i loved the movie but it was so funny we sat way in the back and then some older people came and sat 1 row down and like 8 chairs away and about half way thorugh the movie the man started to snore!!! it was very very funny!! when the people started to fight in the movie i was really confuesed me and SOCOOL held hands becsue we were so nervous!!!!! lol i didnt read the last book becasue i hate hate hate having the book end for me it is the worst!!! but when it really didnt happen i was so happy!!!! i love alice! she is my favorite!!!!! i love love love love jacob too he is my faviorit guy he is so dang good lookin!!! me and SOCOOL love him! love love love lvoe lvoe love love love love him!!!! why cant i be a vampire????? i got new shamppor and the funny thing was it was volumizing but idnt do any voluminxing it mad my hair flater!!!
i want to marry bear today!

somethimes i feel so out of a group i cant stand it it is crazy i wish i could be more apart of some grups and be nice and happy and fun to be around, in debate we won 2 out of six debates which is terrible and just at the same time i started txting this guy from my past again so yeh thats exactly wiaht i want to be sad and have a boy being nice and sweeet to me so he can get in my head and take me away